We met Rosy 3 weeks ago when she offered to share her ‘Love Not Smoking Journey’ with us with the support of professor Karen Pine of Hatfield University (co-author of the book).
I woke up on Friday 18th March with the distinct idea that this giving up smoking idea was not one of my better ones, well not at that precise moment anyway. Having done the 14 days preparation following the rules in the Love Not Smoking book this was not the way I should be feeling even I realised that, what had gone wrong, why was I feeling so anti, why did I desperately need to find a cigarette, why did I feel so deprived, there were no real reasons that I could come up with, nothing had happened since the night before when I had been quite happy with the idea of a cigarette free life. What to do next, not start the programme and have to explain I hadn’t given up, I just hadn’t started and move to the other side of the world to avoid the embarrassment, I think not! However something needed to be done and a decision needed to be made, so I had a ponder and a cigarette while I got my thoughts together.
Friday 18th was without a doubt the day I would give up smoking, no way was I wasting 14 days preparation, but I still needed to smoke the cigarette I had in my hand, then it struck me no one said that I had to give up from breakfast time and did it really matter if I gave up after lunch no of course it didn’t, my agreement with me was that I would give up on March 18th and I would keep that pledge, so that was exactly what I decided to do, give up before tea.. About three o’ clock I lit my last cigarette and that was it, I felt quite happy about it something that hadn’t felt that morning infact had I made myself go ahead then I am sure I would be writing this with the “slight” smell of nicotine in the air, on my clothes, in my hair, in the soft furnishings and generally hanging around like an unwelcome guest.
Well that was last Friday how do you think I am doing now?
Love Not Smoking: Do Something Different by Karen Pine and Ben (C) Fletcher is published by Hay House Publishers